A Blathering: Not Enough Butter Over Too Much Bread
Have you ever felt this way? Sometimes it feels like you’re really trying to make it to the weekend – only the weekends are packed with things you don’t really want to do or didn’t have time to do. Do you remember back when you used to read for hours and hours? I do – and I know why I am struggling lately. This struggle is over a myriad feelings and issues that I have in my head and in my view each and every day. Messy things, unfinished business, poor sleep, lack of motivation for the mundane duties of life. In my attempts to build a positive world around me, I have started to feel like I am slave to that goal. It’s silly, actually. I’m creating my own world and then I get all stressed out about it like I can’t control it!
Gotta Do What I’ve Gotta Do
Sadly, things will improve when the kids go back to school. As much as I love them, they kind of make a mess of everything. We’re going camping this weekend so it will be a nice end to the summer. Then, we will spend the Labor Day holiday getting things squared away – so we can get back to a routine that is more structured.
So – that being said, I am not going to force myself to blather each day or podcast either. When I have guests scheduled, I will post that episode and if something really inspires me to blather on the mic, I’ll do it…but I no longer feel obligated. I kind of unofficially stated that my blog and podcast was a daily thing. I’ll make it based on inspiration and not on any requirements. I view this as all in the process of getting to where I want to be. I want to get to where being positive is not a struggle. I have some very good days and I know that my overall outlook has improved. Last week’s trauma was a lot to handle and I am dealing with it.
This blathering helped. I needed to get that out. If you read to the end, I think you’re a very special person.